Tuesday, April 29, 2014

An Open Letter (Journal 34)


To the new owners of our family camp:

I believe that places have memories; that locations are imbued with feelings from the past.  Sometimes when you first enter a place, you can feel them in the air, hear them whispering – a legacy of sorts.  The camps at the end of Sheldon Road carry this legacy.  Built by my great-great-grandfather, the red camp sits at the end of the point, a sentinel from the past, guarding memories – memories you will soon share in.
 
My great-grandmother spent her summers at the camp.  A teacher for many years, she spent her vacations here amongst walls papered with her students' artwork – crayon drawings of the ducks and geese that inhabit the lakeside.  My grandparents, Grace and Sheldon, brought their five children down the dirt road to the camp, and in the late 60s, my grandfather and uncle built the white camp.  Since that time, the camps have been the site of many family gatherings and barbecues at the picnic tables on the porch of the red camp.  Hopefully, your family will inherit this legacy of joy and communion.
 
Opening the creaky screen door to the red camp, the gray planks of the kitchen floor sag a bit with the weight of all this history.  The kitchen window looks out on the blueberry bushes that surround the property, ripe in summer with indigo fruit.  We would pick buckets full, often like the little girl in Blueberries For Sal – one berry plinking into the bucket, and two staining our lips with their bluish hue. 
 
From the kitchen of the red camp, comes the living room.  As you sit before the stone fireplace in the living room, see the reflections of ancient fires mirrored in the mica embedded deep in the quarried stones.  The large windows of the living room always opened to let in the evening breezes and the sultry scent of the scarlet geraniums growing in the window boxes outside.
 
Climb the stairs to the second floor, and feel your feet fall into the grooves carved by all the bare feet that traveled that same journey.  There were never doors on any of the upstairs bedrooms, just curtains hung across the thresholds.  The view from upstairs across the waters always took my breath away.  And in the master bedroom, countless lids have drooped and fallen asleep, dreaming to the music of the lapping waters of the lake as they murmur against the stones at the shore. 
 
One of those stones, just off the porch of the camp is called the “fishing rock.”  You'll know it when you see it.  It's part of an old stone wharf, now submerged beneath the waters.  There's an old tree just to the left of the rock.  The gnarled roots weave into a stone seat, a place of peaceful respite with a view of the islands.  From here, you can see Blueberry, Doctor's, and Battleship, all nestled like verdant jewels in the azure waves.
 
At  sunset, the waters turn to flames of golden ripples, but beneath the sapphire skies of day the still waters steal the souls of the island trees, holding them captive in their depths.  The twin reflections mirror in the glassy surface of the lake, a lake whose waters refresh even the hottest summer days. 
These camps are truly a place of beauty, and I hope they bring you and your family as much joy and fellowship as they have brought mine over the years. 

Wishing you all the best on behalf of my family and this place that we have all loved so much,

Sincerely,
Stephanie

Professional Development: The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly (Journal 33)



A workshop I sat through that made me proud to be part of the audience......

I was blessed enough to be a part of Harvard's Center for Mideast Studies Egypt Forum.  Paul Beran was our leader, and he is brilliant.  He knew just which books to read, which films to recommend, which questions to ask, and how to challenge us to think through ways to bring the Middle East back to our New England classrooms.  He challenged us to choose novels, provided cuisine from the area, and whet our palates and senses with music, photography, and field trips.  Any time I went to one of these meetings, I felt as though I was a part of something important, that I was truly doing good work.

In Egypt, we met with the Fulbright Committee, we visited with World Bank officials, we met a newspaper reporter who had been imprisoned by a dogmatic Muslim regime, we had a late supper at an ex-patriot author's Cairo apartment.  Every activity or seminar I took part of made me feel surrounded by brilliance and happy to be there.  I knew I was part of something important.

I also love workshops where I get handouts, packets, free materials, and practical advice.  I want something to take away and bring back to my classroom, even if only in the form of new information.  That's what makes a good quality workshop.



A workshop I sat through that was not helpful.........

I have been forced to sit through many unhelpful workshops.  Workshops are hard for me because I enter with high expectations: I want to learn something knew.  I yearn to be told about resources or texts that I didn't know existed before.  This is more challenging than it sounds.  For the most part, though, our scheduled in-service days are the most horrendous waste of my time imaginable.  They are full of buzzwords and taking heads; important-sounding jargon is thrown around, we pat ourselves on the back, but no real work is ever accomplished.  Nothing ever really changes or improves as a result of these in-service days.  I say this even as an individual who has been charged on no less than three different occasions with leading school-wide in-service workshops.  There is little accountability, and little respect.  Teachers sit there playing videos or engaging in on-line poker tournaments instead of listening.  Fellow colleagues are downright hostile or disagreeable.  They feel put upon and disinterested, and there is no true accountability to make sure that anything changes or is implemented anew as a result. It's a little disheartening sometimes...

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Some Literary Top Tens (Journal 32)


“These books have kept me company through my long years” (from Elizabeth Kostova's The Historian, p. 576).


Top 10 Children's Picture Books
  1. Old Turtle and the Broken Truth by Douglas Wood
  2. Three Questions by Jon Muth
  3. Mole Music by David McPhail
  4. Blueberry Girl by Neil Gaiman
  5. Henry's Night by D. B. Johnson
  6. Caleb's Lighthouse by Mark Kimball Moulton
  7. One Grain of Sand by Pete Seeger
  8. The Dump Man's Treasures by Lynne Plourde
  9. Papa's Song by Kate and Jim McMullan
  10.  The Mysteries of Harris Burdick by Chris Van Allsburg


Top 10 Intermediate or Young Adult Books
  1. Emily of New Moon by L. M. Montgomery
  2. A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray
  3. The Ropemaker by Peter Dickinson
  4. Book of a Thousand Days by Shannon Hale
  5. Keturah and Lord Death by Martine Leavitt
  6. Sirena by Donna Jo Napoli
  7. Tuck Everlasting by Natalie Babbitt
  8. Abarat by Clive Barker
  9. Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson
  10. Island of the Blue Dolphins by Scott O'Dell

Top 10 Novels
  1. Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte
  2. The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera
  3. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
  4. The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
  5. The Drowning Tree by Carol Goodman
  6. The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton
  7. The Tenth Gift by Jane Johnson
  8. The Map of Love by Ahdaf Soueif
  9. Year of Wonders by Geraldine Brooks
  10. A Rose inWinter by Kathleen Woodiwiss

Music to Read By: Songs for the Literate Listener (Journal 31)



“Without music, life is a journey through a desert.” --Pat Conroy, Beach Music
 

This is a track list I have created featuring songs that connect me to some of my favorite books.

“Faded Dress” by Kay Hanley (The Great Gatsby)

“Run to the Water” by Live (By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept)

“The Story” by Brandi Carlile (The History of Love)

“The Rain King” by Counting Crows (Henderson the Rain King)

“Left Me a Fool” by the Indigo Girls (“The Lady of Shallott)

“The Crane Wife 3” by The Decemberists (Wuthering Heights)

“Bring on the Wonder” by Susan Enan (Jane Eyre)

“Born to Run” by Bruce Springsteen (Thus Spoke Zarathustra)

“Crazy Faith” By Alison Krauss and Union Station (The English Patient)

“Acoustic #3” by the Goo Goo Dolls (The Bluest Eye)

“That's How I Knew This Story Would Break My Heart” by Aimee Mann (Until I Find You)

“Scarecrow” by Rustic Overtones (Persuasion)

“Isn't It a Pity” by the Cowboy Junkies (To Kill a Mockingbird)

“Words” by Gregory Alan Isakov (Leaves of Grass)

“Myth” by Delerium featuring Joanna Stevens (Sandman)

A Response to Literature (Journal 30)


“I put the book aside, astonished.  I don't know what I had been expecting, other than notes on the patterns that the book contained...but this sudden window into the past was like a glimpse of treasure” (from The Tenth Gift by Jane Johnson, p. 33).


The Yacoubian Building
by Alaa al-Aswany

This was an amazing book.  It did take me awhile to really get into it, probably because of the episodic nature of the narrative structure.  Once I really got to know the various characters, though, I found their stories compelling.  Some of the stories were more sympathetic to me than others.  For example, I found that I really liked Zaki Bey.  He reminded me of my 83 year-old grandfather who was found to be juggling two girlfriends at his rest home.  I really liked his character.  He was polished, and never rude.  I absolutely hated his sister, Dawlat, though.  As a female reader I found I could empathize with her; she needed financial security from her brother.  I did not, however, agree with the means by which she attempted to secure that.  I was happy that Zaki Bey seemed to thwart her plans in the end by marrying Busayna – she was a woman who truly deserved a happy ending.  It was endearing to me how she ultimately came to care for Zaki Bey and how, as a result of those emotions, she abandoned her original plans.  She was a very spunky character who found a way to survive, found a way for her family to survive after her father’s death, despite hardship.  There was no way that Taha would have understood that.  Taha’s character gives insight into how religious fundamentalism works in a community such as the one described in The Yacoubian Building, but what about Radwa?  She had already lost one husband to the gihad, and now Taha.  I would have thought that as a character who underwent both emotional and physical torture he would have possessed more empathy, but he was so consumed by his need for revenge that in the end he abandoned the Organization’s plans (which admittedly took a year to hatch) in order to secure both his vengeance and his martyrdom.  I know Taha thought it was worth it, but as a reader I remain unconvinced.  I also felt more for Hatim Rasheed than I did for Abduh.  I know Abduh loved his son, but Hatim loved him.  It was a love of desperation, though, and perhaps that is why it was doomed to fail.  I was shocked in the end that Abduh felt enough rage and grief to brutally murder Hatim, but there is this sense of parallelism that develops as a result.  Abduh aligns with Taha, while Hatim aligns with the regime.  While Hatim does not explicitly torture Abduh, it is implicit.  He certainly manipulates him in order to get what he wants.  This is similar to what the regime does to Taha in order to get what they want.  Both actions compel another human being to bend to the will of another, although admittedly the severity is vastly different, the end result is still the same and lives are irreparably ruined and damaged as a result.  Along those same lines, the Sheikh and the Organization attempt to achieve those same goals, with similar results. 
Perhaps the ultimate message of the novel is about freedom, then.  Individuals need to be free to be themselves; they should not bend or change to meet another’s wills, nor should they force another to bend or change to meet theirs.  In the end, the only truly successful characters are Zaki Bey and Busayna, two characters who refuse to change their true identities, and in being truthful to one another, are able to find happiness and companionship in the end.  The other storylines relating to political corruption were less interesting to me, as I found it difficult to empathize with Hagg Azzam or Malak.  It seemed to me that they both got what they deserved.  Hagg Azzam blackmailed and bribed in order to achieve his high position, and then self-righteously got angry when El Fouli turned the tables and blackmailed and extorted him.  Hagg Azzam struck me as a hypocritical character who was only after his own best interests.  Furthermore, I hated him for what he did to Souad.  True, she did “break” her end of the bargain by getting pregnant, but he broke religious law in order to keep his face in society. 
Another of the novel’s messages seems to be that looks can be deceiving.  For example, people gossip about Busayna, but she remains a virgin (at least until Zaki Bey).  Also, the way that the people on the roof of the Yacoubian Building deal with Abduh relates to this message.  Because they like him, they do not judge him as harshly.  He is still committing a “sin” in their eyes, but because he is “nice” they do not see him as wicked, only as misguided.  (Hypocrisy in this society is interesting to note, too, particularly with regard to this theme.)  Malak, also, did not seem to deserve my sympathy.  He was trying to better himself, true, but the means by which he attempted to achieve this were problematic for me.  He used people, he stole space from the roof; true, he did give to charity, but he was also corrupt.  The way that religion is represent, too, is corrupt.  Here, there seems to be an alignment between the politics and the religion: they are inseparable, and they are also corrupt.  The two primary religious figures in the text are both able to bend the religious doctrines to achieve their own ends.  One of the Sheiks twists the religious discourse, causing young men and women to protest, face inhuman beatings, and ultimately martyrdom for a cause that they are brainwashed into believing.  The other Sheik is able to twist religious teachings such that Hagg Azzam is able to feel religiously justified in his forcible termination of Souad’s pregnancy.  Neither of these men seems to represent the “true Islam,” no matter how much each character seems to protest that he does.  The verisimilitude with which the author rendered these characters is truly remarkable, because as a reader you get to see through their eyes and walk a mile in their shoes.  Even if I did not agree on a personal level, as a reader I was able to understand each character’s motivations.

Recipe for a Beautiful Book (Journal 29)



He turns to the first page and instantly the tower and the sky, the desert and his very breath, his very heartbeat are snatched away and he is inside the book...the most beautiful book he has ever read” (from Keith Miller's The Book of Flying, p. 253).


Recipe for a Beautiful Book

Ingredients:


1 round, dynamic character
½ cup vivid verbs
¼ cup point of view
1 ¼ cup vibrant setting
¼ teaspoon motivation
1 ½ cup conflict
3 recurring motifs
2 pinches mood
¼ cup unsweetened symbols
1 dash atmosphere
4 tablespoons suspense
2 cups figurative language, firmly packed
1 climax, well stirred
1 cup semisweet stock characters
½ cup melted resolution (be sure to trim all loose ends)
12 archetypes, crushed
3 teaspoons tone extract
¼ cup witty dialogue
2 tablespoons allusion

Topping:
½ cup whipping theme
1 ½ cups fresh ideas, rinsed and thoroughly dried
a sprinkling of finely chopped metaphor

Baking Instructions:
   1. Heat oven to 350°F (175°C). Parchment or wax paper line and grease a 12-inch round baking pan.
   2. In a medium bowl, mix together round dynamic character, vivid verbs, point of view, motivation, and conflict. Set aside.
   3. In a medium saucepan, melt recurring motifs , mood, unsweetened symbols, and atmosphere over low heat. Remove from heat. Stir in suspense, figurative language and climax. Add semisweet stock characters, blending well. Stir in melted resolution, crushed archetypes, tone, dialogue, and allusion.  Add to mixture in bowl.  Blend well.
   4. Spread mixture in prepared pan.
   5. Bake 20 to 25 minutes or until wooden pick inserted into center comes out with moist crumbs. Cool in pan on wire rack for 15 minutes. Invert onto wire rack; remove parchment or wax paper. Turn right side up; cool completely.
   6. In a small bowl, beat whipping theme until stiff peaks form. Spread over top of cake and top with fresh ideas and metaphor. Refrigerate until serving time.

Makes 1 entertaining read.

Allusion Poem (Journal 28)



“What I want to tell you is this: the story was so perfectly, flawlessly written that it wrought drastic change in my life” (from Walter Moers' The City of Dreaming Books, p. 19).


"Reflections On Why I Never Played Sports"

I never tried out for little league,
Or pee-wee gymnastics like my little sister,
I had too many other things on my mind,
Like wondering if mice could really skate on paperclips
Or what it would be like to sleep in an ancient art museum bed
I never participated in intra-murals,
Or even took dance lessons or karate,
I was far too busy hollowing out a tree for my new home,
Or making friends with spiders and giants,
Sometimes,  I was even too sad to go play outside,
Like when Billy told me what happened to Ann and Dan,
Or when I let Jess cry his heart out on my shoulder,
I certainly didn’t have any time left for field hockey,
I had to help Tim get his father’s gun back,
Or I was too busy on the spruce barrens with Emily and the gossamer-clad Wind Woman,
Obviously no one expected me to play basketball,
I’m honestly not tall enough, and besides,
I had to help Sara with her extra chores – no matter what Miss Minchin said,
And I could not possibly have been expected to miss Anne and Gilbert’s wedding,
I had waited far too long for that,
I never conceived of being a cheerleader, either,
I guess Karana had taught me too much about what an independent woman could do that I simply could not stand to be around those airheads,
I never tried fencing, either,
I just had to reuinte Josh and Joey,
And help Mary unlock the secrets of the forgotten garden,
Volleyball was out of the question,
I had to empty my mother’s china cabinet just to see
If it had the power to give life,
And I could never have practiced archery,
Not after learning the lesson of compassion from Beauty,
I was even too busy for bowling,
I was practicing with Louis and Sam Beaver,
And as far as the tennis team, well,
You would have to ask Meg or Calvin or Charles Wallace,
Because you certainly wouldn’t believe me.